“The Heroin Diaries” and “This Is Gonna Hurt” by Nikki Sixx
Motley Crue’s Nikki Sixx published two books during my teen years – a few of the most crucial developmental years in your life. I sat in a dark place and never knew how to get help or help myself. His books got me through the entirety of my time in high school (beginning to the end) and even through the first year or two of university.
Sixx’s problem most synonymous with him was his drug use, but I took so much meaning away from his work even never experiencing a drug issue myself. Every substance abuse issue begins with mental and emotional turmoil, and I dug my talons into it so deep blood would have let if those were tangible.
“The Heroin Diaries” (his first book) showed his real-time recovery through his journal entries. It inspired me to continue on in my life when I watched Sixx pull himself out of bad places (especially after being clinically dead). And I remember rushing to Borders (remember when that was a thing, older readers?) to pick up “This Is Gonna Hurt” at the end of my senior year because his first book hit me that hard. His photography and his life experience written in the book helped get me through the transition from home to university by aiding my attempts at creating a new mindset for my art and for my personal interactions. Not the biggest fan of the guy as a person anymore, but I will never deny the impact Sixx had on me growing up.