Even the Best of Us Loses the Best of Us

Very rarely will I fall off the wagon so hard due to depression or anxiety like in the past; quite frankly, I do not miss that happening one bit. I also know that low points and relapses are a continuous part of life and healing. Despite that, when you spend more time feeling happy rather than miserable, you forget just how exhausting it is to be upset or worried all of the time.

I would be lying to you all if I told you that I have been walking around with my head held high and looking fierce and flawless (as I enjoy once in a blue moon). You want to know what my last week or two hasĀ really been like?

Continue reading “Even the Best of Us Loses the Best of Us”

Advertisements

Get My Glow On? (Sometimes)

Oh, highlighter. So many beauty influencers and makeup novices alike just love covering themselves in the stuff and looking like they just bathed in canola oil. Throughout my time doing makeup, no product has ever made me feel as uncertain about it as highlighter.

Continue reading “Get My Glow On? (Sometimes)”

Makeup Playlist Faves #5 – “We Don’t Have to Dance” by Andy Black

Summer is just beginning, and that means one of my favorite events of the summer is also on the way: Vans Warped Tour! Even though I attended the festival a few years in a row, the music isn’t particularly what I seek out. (My musical tastes tend to lean a little more old-school rock and roll rather than pop punk or metalcore, which practically dominates the festival.)

Since the day I go for press coverage and friends is arriving, I figured I would make my music segment here a little lead-up to the day. “We Don’t Have to Dance” is one of Andy Black’s (aka Andy Biersack’s) catchier new tracks I felt like sharing; it’s nothing mind-blowing, but the music is fun.

Enjoy!

Post-Wedding Rehab & Self Care

While my best friend’s wedding gave me a taste of just how stressful being in the wedding party can be, the day itself was incredibly beautiful. Not only was the venue beautiful, but all of us friends celebrating had a great time, too. The top photo is practically everyone’s new Facebook cover photo, since it captures the happiness and goofiness we all emit when we are together. But so much fun (and my niece getting a pretty owwie boo boo the other day from the dog) also calls for some personal R&R. And I’m more than happy to share some steps with you.

Continue reading “Post-Wedding Rehab & Self Care”

I’ve Been Having a Tough Time…

Hello, all of you spooks. I know I promised the posting schedule will be better, but stressors on the outside have made it nearly impossible for me to focus on my work. My best friend is getting married on Saturday, which led to a few conflicts that blew up into something way worse than it should have been. (Luckily, everything is all right for now.) My full-time job at a casino was insanely busy due to Memorial Day weekend, and I also work extra days straight due to the wedding coming up over the weekend.

Continue reading “I’ve Been Having a Tough Time…”

Maya Brooke 3/4 Sleeve Jacket Dress – Trendy or Trash?

Dresses are still sort of a new style for me, since I spent almost half of my life as a “tomboy” type of girl. My current job, however, convinced me to incorporate more dresses into my wardrobe and fewer baggy band shirts and sweatpants. I want my look to project the professional I perceive myself as to others. (Not to mention looking good always helps you feel good in general.)

A trip to JCPenney surprised me, though, when I saw this Maya Brooke dress. Patterns usually fail to catch my interest; I think the red jacket drew me in the most, though. I’ve been missing a sharp, business-like dress, and it just screamed that to me. I totally bought it.

But is it trendy, or is it just trash? Let’s break it down.

Continue reading “Maya Brooke 3/4 Sleeve Jacket Dress – Trendy or Trash?”

Modeling, Makeup, and Mental Health Awareness Month

Though a shroud of stigmas surround them, mental illnesses are probably some of the most difficult disorders to try and deal with. It’s sad when people who don’t understand try to make it sound so easy to handle. On the other end, it’s also a bit exaggerated when people who suffer from disorders like depression and anxiety swear they are unable to at least try to keep it from ruining their life in any way.

Despite what people may think, things really do get better eventually.

I lack the need to lay my whole life out on the table, but I dealt with some tough events in the past up until this point. (Hell, some days the littlest things will still flare me up for a few minutes.) People died, a parent said goodbye (not forever, but had to leave the house), and I wrestled self-loathing the size of a brontosaurus. And I also admit that, up until almost two years, I failed to get myself the sufficient help I needed; it felt easier to sit in bed, mope, and live in ignorance. However, it’s never too late, and I have put in the work necessary ever since on a daily basis, and makeup and fashion were part of that work. Continue reading “Modeling, Makeup, and Mental Health Awareness Month”